Last night, I was thinking about the letter I wanted to write you today. I figured since I’m so picture-and-video-happy all the time that I would try to find some of the first pictures and videos I have of you. So I began the search through folders upon folders of pictures on my laptop, on USB drives, in e-mails I’d been sent by The B’s,everywhere.
Then I realized that Grandma M actually took our first photos together. She was my “labor coach” I guess you would say. She held my hand through the pushing, was the one who reminded me to breathe, who whispered words of encouragement when it was getting really hard (I love you, but I did not love labor. I take that back. I loved my epidural).
So when you finally arrived and my hands no longer needed to hold anything but you, she grabbed the camera and the official documentation of your life began. It has yet to stop. I doubt it ever will (because J would never let it, and I love her for that). I’m so very happy that I got to be a part of those first pictures with you. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so at peace in my entire life than I did when they put you on my chest. Because our first pictures weren’t just pictures of us – they were pictures of the moment the best part of my life began.
Copying me? :)
Letters to Little Man 
So pretty, you guys looked so happy.
As an adoptee, I really love to read blogs like yours. Kind of helps me understand how my mom must have felt. She still can’t really talk to me about the day I was born. Maybe some day.
Being a birthmom is definitely tough, so I understand how it might be hard for her. It’s great that you still seem to be in contact with her though! I hope you’ll get the story someday too – having you in her life probably helps her a lot :)
We only met three years ago (I’m 33) and is its still new. I will be spending three weeks with her and my dad over the summer ( they are still together) so if you have any suggestions ..they would be welcome. Like how to talk to her….
A day that was long awaited, miraculous in its significance, and the beginning of a love affair that clearly will last a life time; the ultimate gift.