The first time I felt you kick when I was pregnant was on Valentine’s Day. I was actually at the movies watching a film called Valentine’s Day. Honestly…it kind of felt like I had gas. Hopefully that doesn’t completely ruin the romantic image of the moment because it was a really big moment for me. I was just sitting there, in the movie theater, wondering what was going on with my stomach and all of a sudden realizing what that fluttering feeling was. It was you.
I had never been so moved in my entire life. I had known you were there, of course. I found out I was pregnant on December 22, 2009. And even though I loved you from the second I discovered you, I truly felt a connection to you that Valentine’s Day. Like our relationship was real and we were one. It was the first time I really felt like a mom. It was the best Valentine’s gift I’ve ever gotten. No flowers or chocolates or cards are ever going to make me feel as loved as I felt on that day. I felt you kick every single day from them until the day you were born, and I cherished every single second of it. I like to think it was your way of saying, “Hi mom!”
And since we both know I love videos (E sent me some great ones last night after yesterday’s post) I wanted to show you one of the many videos I have of you…before you were born. You could morph my stomach into some pretty weird shapes and it was so much fun to watch and feel! I have lots of film clips of you kicking, turning over, rolling around and doing whatever else you were doing in there. I loved every second of it and sometimes, I miss it – you being so close, feeling every movement you made. But luckily for me, I have videos like these for moments like those :)
Letters to Little Man 